We came home from running errands this afternoon to find "it" had arrived. "It" was the giant box of curriculum I had recently ordered and had been waiting expectantly for all week. I was like a kid on Christmas morning! Tearing into the box, I eagerly began organizing everything into piles for each kid. The piles kept growing...and growing...and growing. Before long, my prior elation turned to dread and I had a sudden overwhelming urge to curl up and take a nap...or sit in the fetal position under the table.
With one in high school, one in Jr. high and two in elementary this is going to be a challenging year. Keeping everything straight, everyone on track and my sanity somewhat in tact is going to take every single ounce of strength I possess...and then some.
Truth is if it were totally dependant on me, we'd be in a world of hurt. Thankfully I'm not in this alone.
Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me. That’s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong. 2 Corinthians 12:9-10
I can boast in nothing except my need for Christ. It is through His strength I am able to tackle planning an entire year of homeschooling for four kids. It is through His strength I am able to devote myself daily to teaching and training them in the way they should go. It is through His strength I am able to maintain a (relatively) peaceful environment and keep our home running (somewhat) smoothly.
So while I may feel like curling up in a ball under the table, I'm headed back in to face those piles. I will be faithful in what He's called me to...the rest is up to Him.