"If I am fearfully and wonderfully made, how come I'm so screwed up?"Wow. That's something to think on isn't it? I know Psalm 139...I trust God's word is Truth, so why am I so messed up? Why is my thinking so skewed? Why am I dealing with all this crap?
I exhaust myself trying to find answers...answers that just aren't there, or if so are extremely elusive. Are the answers important, or is simply asking the question enough? Will knowledge change the outcome?
I know God is in this. His promise to me in the beginning is all I have.
"You will keep in perfect peace all who trust in you, whose thoughts are fixed on you." Isaiah 26:3.
Know it by heart...quote it in my sleep. I'm struggling today to see how peace fits in with depression. It seems a complete oxymoron to have peace in the midst of depression. The very definition of depression is lack of peace. If I had peace it would seem that I would not then be depressed. Makes sense to me.
Faith is believing in what we can't see, or for that matter understand. This is my ultimate test of faith...believing His promise for peace while fighting my battle with depression.
Ang, keep writing. Keep talking out your thoughts on faith and depression. God is doing something. I love you.
ReplyDeleteThis is beautiful and painful. You are an amazing women. Praying for you daily!!
ReplyDeleteAng,In my devo this morning I read a verse and thought it would be another great verse for you (for us all) to stand on as you "believe what you cannot see" (John 14:26 & 27)Underline the words "will teach" and "Give". To teach means it is a process but the hope comes in realizing peace is a gift - no prerequisites. He has begun... He will bring it to completion. Love ya, Dara
ReplyDeleteAngela, are you depressed over something specific or is it something you can't put your finger on? Do you think it might be hormonal/physical?
ReplyDeletePraying for you, friend.
Paula